Monday, March 12, 2012

Turning a new Corner

There is so much I want to talk about on here. But I cant. I have not written in 2 weeks, TWO WEEKS! What a huge 2 weeks it has been. So many feelings, emotions and ups and downs have occurred. I have had to blog them all in my head, hit publish post, and push them to the back of my mind for a later day. It's funny how this blog is a reflection and record of my journey, yet I am not ready or brave enough to write it all out. I talk it out with a few special people in my life, but not here, not yet. Ive said it before...I'm on a journey. A journey of self love and appreciation. A journey of happiness and gratitude. Unless I can speak positively about a topic I want to keep it on the down low. When I can work through it in my heart, soul and mind, find the positive and beautiful silver lining, then I can share it with you :-) Promise :-)

Sooooooo remember how I said that I wasn't a gym girl and I loved my running outside and I could never go to a gym because it would be boring and I couldn't be locked up inside????

I am totally a gym girl

Miss "i love running outdoors and will never sign up to gym again' in fact signed up to a gym 2 weeks ago. Call me crazy but I love it just as much as I love running! When I signed up they asked me what my goals were. I simply said I needed a safe place to run! I was running by myself at 7.30 at night and as the seasons changed it was getting darker and darker and was just not safe for me. So I made the decision to sign up to a gym. I would finish work, go straight to the gym, do my 45 minute 5K training then go home and get started on my nightly routine. Well well well hasn't THAT all changed. I now wake up at 5am every morning. Feed all the animals, have my breakfast, watch the sun rise and then head to the gym at 6 for a 6.10 class. Family and friends pick that jaw up off the ground - Yes this is me, Sarah, talking here! I am NOT a morning person! I hate the mornings. In all of the 5 years of mine and Robs relationship Ive got up about twice to see him in the morning. Now look at me! I love it! It is completely awesome and has totally changed my outlook on life. This has been a HUGE corner I have turned on my journey and I am loving it! I never thought I would be doing this and loving it so much! Yes I'm tired. I go straight from the gym to work and don't get home til 7.30pm but ladies and gentlemen SARAH IS SLEEPING!!!! Yes for the first time in 4 years I am sleeping through the night! I have tears as I am writing this as those close to me know how much I have struggled with my insomnia. Night after night only sleeping for 3 hours. I am now in bed and ASLEEP by 10.30pm! I feel like I'm living in a dream! Everything is turning out perfectly! I am so much happier and calmer. Last week I was sick a couple of days and could not go to my early morning class! Gosh I missed it! Even after a week, I noticed how much my body relied on that early morning class to start my day. My days were miserable and I was irritable! Now, today, after being at the gym since 6am this morning, I feel more alive than I ever have!

I am happy. I am confident. I feel beautiful. I feel at peace. 
Who would have thought smashing it out at the gym at 6 in the morning could do this! 
Thank You GYM ~ You are my lifesaver

x S.K.K x


Bella_K said...

Great to hear you love the gym and it's helping you so much!!

Thea said...

All I have to say wonderful!!!
Is that enough? :)

•´.¸¸.•¨¯`♥.Trish.♥´¯¨•.¸¸.´• said...

That is am amazing turn around Sarah. Go you .
I have started using gym 1-2 days a week with a friend. Too far out of twin to get there by 6am and back for school or I would.

Steph said...

Completely love your gym love! Its a wonderful feeling when you have that excitement and drive to go. I have just found that "happy gym place" too, but now Im moving house :( Boo. Anyways, good to hear your loving it!

Me said...

I am so happy for you - what a great positive post.

I am also not really a morning person but reading how you are now sleeping I might have to try becoming a morning person and getting up and exercising.

I have suffered from insomnia for more years than I care to remember - maybe 16-18 - also sleeping 3 or 4 hrs a night if I am lucky - and then always broken sleep anyway. When A is away I don't sleep that well and when he is home I definitely don't sleep well because he snores so much !!!

Might look into this early morning exercise a bit more once I am off my restricted eating plan.

Thanks so much for this - if it works for me I will owe you forever !!!!

Have a great day !

Kylee Noelle {the blog} said...

wow, go you! i've had those times too. lately has not been one of them haha.

x S.K.K x said...

Thank You so much everyone!!!! I hope you all find the love I have! 'Me' how have you been going? How's your sleeping???