Tuesday, May 28, 2013

New Day, New Beginnings.

I have a positive mind, love in my heart, peace in my soul and now it's time to put all of this strength into my body.

I'm a very positive person. I haven't always been, but over the past 4 years I've been on an awesome journey of self discovery and have truly found the meaning of my life. I'm only 27 and I feel I am very lucky to be able to say that I am truly happy and at peace with myself. I know this will change. I know as I grow older I will be tested, far beyond my comprehension, but right now this 27 year old married woman is content. I use my blog to portray this. I sincerely believe that what you put out you get back. Why not share the love, peace and happiness I feel in my heart with everyone around me. My life is full of rainbows and butterflies and I have a love affair with adjectives. Everything in my world is special, gorgeous, fabulous, wonderful and exciting and that's how it should be.

I have a positive mind. Everything I think is positive. I never once let a negative thought take over me. If something bad happens I’ll talk it out with my husband or best friend and always, and I mean always, look at the best possible outcome. Everything happens for a reason. You can't see the rainbow without the storm. I have the greatest love in my heart. The empathy and love that I feel to everyone around is sometimes overwhelming. Family, friends, strangers, it's all the same. No matter who they are or what they are going through I will love them with everything I have and hope that I can make them see what a truly amazing person they are. Love is the strongest and greatest gift of all. I feel complete peace within my soul. Every day I wake up completely thankful and grateful for this amazing life I lead. I have no worries, no regrets and I feel free. I notice the little things and make every single moment count. Remember to stop and appreciate those special moments, they will be the memories that last forever.

Imagine the hurt, confusion and disbelief when I started doubting myself. I worked so hard in becoming the person that I am and one silly little thought could have thrown that all away.


 I started at the gym exactly a year ago. I needed a safe place for me to run at night. I wanted to be a runner. Desperately! I loved pushing my body and seeing how far it could go. I didn't get very far as the classes and diversity of the gym took over and I fell in love with dynamic of the typical 'gym life'. My running goals went out the window and I focused all my time and energy into having fun with exercise. I pumped, combated, cycled and body balanced my way through a year of fun. I'm so grateful for this past year; I fell in love with exercise. This is hard for some people, but I wanted the gym to be something that I wanted to do and not something I have to do. I didn't have any goals. I didn't want to lose weight. I just went 4 times a week and had fun.

Then in November 2012 I competed in Warrior Dash. I had every intention to train for this event but I just kept doing my thing at the gym. The event rocked my world and I proved to myself that I should never underestimate my abilities. I walked the course but smashed the obstacles. It ignited a fire inside me that totally threw me off course. Then and there I knew I wanted to see what my body could do. I knew I had more in me than just the classes at the gym. It took a while to co ordinate and organise but finally a couple of months ago I started 'training'.

Now every Tuesdays and Thursdays I work my butt off. I have the best trainer possible and he pushes me to my limits. I've never dedicated myself to something that is completely not me. It is so totally out of my comfort zone yet I absolutely love it. I started with the basics of strength training and metabolic conditioning and am working my way up. My first week was hard and weird. After my first session I thought what the hell was I doing? This wasn't me. I should be at the gym doing dance classes not lifting weights and squatting. This really threw me. I had fun, heaps of fun, yet my mind slipped and the self doubt was taking over. The negative self talk was horrible and the worst part about it all was that I started to believe it. I knew I had to make a choice. Believe the negativity and believe I couldn't do it and just go back to my 'usual' or make a change! Then and there I made a promise to myself that self doubt will never ever happen again and the words 'I can't' would never leave my mouth! A lot of other words that cannot be mentioned have definitely left my mouth during these sessions and a lot of groans and yells, but never “I can't”! 

The sessions are easy but training alone is the hardest! Sometimes I avoid it. I tell you what, our minds are so dam powerful and can make us believe anything! Last night I was running and was literally fighting with myself for a whole kilometer. My legs were fine, I was a bit puffed but I was fine but the negative self talk started to take over. "What the hell was I doing? Who cares about running and lifting and exercise? Just get home to bed and watch tv and give up all this crap!" This is literally what was going though my mind last night while running through my 2nd kilometer. I was on my own. I had faced a massive day at Kindy and given them my all and I had very little left to give to myself. I wanted to keep going but the 'talk' took over and it bloody won. I stopped! For the first time in a couple of months, half way through my run, I stopped and I fell to the grass and cried. Uncontrollably just cried. I had never stopped before and here I was, after only 2.3km of running, giving up and letting my goals fall into the black hole. I didnt want to do it anymore. I fight very day for my goals. Every. Dam. Day. Its hard. No one knows how hard it is. I live an amazing life but I work my absolute butt of for it.

I think last night I needed to fall. Unfortunately it was literally, but I needed to fall. I needed to hit the floor and reassess what was going on around me. Life is an absolute dream at the moment and I am in a complete ball of happiness but I am so thankful that last night I broke down. It really showed me what I want, who I have around me supporting me, and how I'm going to get there. It really showed me the courage and strength that has grown inside me and I was truly proud of how I deal in the most difficult of situations. I'm not afraid to share it either. Yes I keep life positive and every day is truly a blessing and I share this with my family and friends and here on my blog but I think its also important so share the bad. Share the moments of sadness. We are all human. Life isn't perfect 100% of the time and I want to show you this. Last night in a desperate night I opened up and shared my pain, my set backs and my hurt. It felt good to show that yes life is ridiculously amazing but sometimes we all just need that time to fall. 

Today is a new day and I feel more refreshed than ever. I've fallen, Ive cried, I've slept and woken up to a brand new day. I have a smile on my face, love in my heart and that passion has been lit again!

Here's to new beginnings!

Self doubt can go jump because I’ve totally got this!

Peace Love and Hope
x S.K.K x

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

The Truth About My Job

My name is Sarah and I am a Day Care Mum
I look after 4 children a day in my home.
We play, we laugh, we learn, we connect, we sing, we dance, we grow.

But there are a few things you may not know about my job.

~ The secret truth of a Day Care Mum ~

I work in one room all day long with 4 children under 5 with no adult interaction what so ever. Sometimes I may or may not put the toys in hilarious positions and laugh with myself about them. Woody and I were totes chilling this day watching the kids do puzzles.

Every day we have 'dance time' and at my Kindy we rock it out. No Hi-5 or Wiggles here. We listen to all the latest "clean" pop songs and my kindy kids groove like nobodies business. We pop, lock and roll all over our 'dancefloor' and I may or may not pretend I'm on stage and rock it out harder than all of the 3 year olds put together ;-)

Our favourite at the moment is...

Don't tell me you didn't do a little toe tap or shoulder shimmy to that songs!

My children squat. Yep every day we get our body squats on. I think a while back during our dance time I did a few squats to change it up a bit and well they remembered and now every day as part of their dance routine they all squat. It is so hilarious, totally unplanned yet completely encouraged for the pure cuteness of it all. These kids get low let me tell you.

I have 'Kindy Couples' in our group. A couple of the children have paired off and have found their first true loves. Its ridiculous adorable and they literally spend all of their time with each other. They get so excited when each of them arrive at 'Kindy' and the love that they show for each other during the day is just priceless.

 The truth is I am 27 years old and have permanent wrinkles on my forehead!
This is because of my Kindy Faces.

Number 1: My 'Discipline' Face - "Oh my goodness me I hope you are using your walking feet when you are in my Kindy room" "Oh Dear I hope you are using your gentle hands" "Oh O we need to share with our friends here at Kindy"

Number 2: My 'Encouraging' Face - "Can you please pass me the BLUE block?" "Where's your nose?" "How do you spell your name?" "How many flowers are in the garden?"  "Are you going to do a poo on the potty?"

Number 3: My 'Celebration' Face - "Horray Horray Horray You did a wee on the potty woo woo woo" "Woohoo you walked to the door instead of running woohoo" "Horray for eating your apple" "Good Job passing that toy"

My eyebrows are constantly raised! ALL DAY...EVERY DAY ;-)


The biggest truth about my job, which is definitely NOT a secret at all, is that I am absolutly 100% IN LOVE with my job. It is so funny calling it a job, it sure doesn't feel like it. Every single day I get to play and hang out with 4 beautiful souls who bring so much joy, love and happiness into my life. I could not and do not want to think about doing anything else.

Being a Day Care Mum ROCKS!
and that's the truth!

Peace, Love and Hope

x S.K.K x

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Sunday Social 48

 Today is brought to you by the letter '4'

1. 4 favorite things to do on a weekend

Spend time with Rob and our babes

Explore new places

Take time out to relax!


2. 4 favorite things about your best friend

From highschool until now she has never given up on me.
She lets me be myself, even though that has been many different personalities over the past decade.
No matter how much time has passed, as soon as we are together it's exactly the same.
She is the most amazing friend, support, mother and wife I know! 

3. 4 things you would do with $100,000

Pay off some debt
Send Rob on a trip to see his brother
Take a trip to Cape York
Start a family.

4. 4 favorite books you've ever read

The Secret
Eat, Pray, Love
The Art of Happiness
New Choices in Natural Healing.

5. 4 favorite snack foods

Lactose Free Cheese

6. 4 things that you must do daily

Check My Blog, Twitter and Facebook
Feed and Play with all the animals on the 'farm'
Tell Rob how grateful I am of him and how much I love him.

Sunday Social

Peace, Love and Hope

x S.K.K x

Thursday, May 2, 2013

A Simple Recipe

Simple. Easy and Delicious

You will need
 250g of beef cubes
 a plate of broccoli florets
 1 tablespoon of garlic
decent splash of Tamari sauce
decent splash of Pure Sesame Oil

Combine tamari, sesame and garlic.
Poor over beef in a fry pan and brown off your meat.

Add in broccoli and cook to preferred taste.
Once cooked, turn off heat and add 2 handfuls of spinach, cover and allow to sit for 5 minutes.
Serve with your favourite rice and sprinkle with black and white Chia seeds.

Seriously Easy! Enjoy!

Peace, Love and Hope.

x S.K.K x

Wednesday, May 1, 2013

Amazing April

Dear April,

Thank You for the amazing once in a life time trip to New York City. I will never forget.

Thank You for reminding me how breathtaking Australia is by showing me some beautiful sunrises this month.

Thank You for giving me some extra special smiles and cuddles from my beautiful babes.

 ...and my gorgeous girls.

You have become a bit chilly in the mornings and evenings and that has brought on some winter colds. Don't worry, I bought a new blender so I can keep having my daily green smoothies and I stocked up on some extra supplements so now I am pretty much unstoppable.

Thank You for allowing us to share one night with this special Bride and Groom. April you will now hold a very special place in this couples life, just like you do ours.

We had a few birthdays to celebrate.

Our darling Molly turned 4 and beautiful Ruby turned 2!
Happy Birthday to my two special girls.

 Our gorgeous A also tuned 2 and although Uncle Rob had to work I was so lucky to be able to spend the morning with our dear friends and their little ray of sunshine!

 ...and my amazing Mum and Dad bought me a gorgeous bunch of pink roses to celebrate!

More April Love

April you gave us a very special once off chance to celebrate the love of 2 special people. Our dear friends live in N.T but flew down for a short trip to celebrate their engagement with their close friends and family. It was a very special night for Rob and I and we are so happy for our amazing friends.

Now that you are a bit cooler April my home made bread tastes that little bit better when it comes straight out of the oven. Can you say comfort food?

April went out with a bang and on the 30th of April 2013 my sister played her first gig at a pub in the Valley. Her support act was amazing but our girl Rachael simply blew them all away. She played an hour set and the room was packed full. Not a single person moved or took their eyes off her the entire time. She had them hooked like I've never seen before and the goosebumps, lump in my throat and pride in my heart was constant for the full 60 minutes. I'm so proud of our star! She has matured so much and owns that stage!

Introducing...Rachael Rutkowski

Thank You April 2013
You have been Amazing and have created beautiful memories for us!

Peace, Love and Hope