Sarah's Heavy Heart

Let me read you a story. It is called "Sarah's Heavy Heart" by Peter Caravas

Sarah had a heavy heart.

She carried it wherever she went.

On the bus.

At school.

In the playground.

And while riding her bike.

Sleeping with a heavy heart was hard

and bedtime was impossible.

Sarah knew the heart would always be hers to carry.

She just wished it wasn't so heavy.

One morning at the bus stop, something floated by.

"What are you doing up there?" Sarah asked.

"My heart's not heavy enough," replied the boy.

Sarah followed him as he drifted through the air.

He floated past trees,

tall buildings,

and low-lying clouds.

The boy came to rest in a paddock on the edge of town.

Sarah helped him up. "Has this happened before?" she asked.

The boy nodded. "It's worse in windy weather," he said.

"My heart just gets carried away.

Sarah sighed. "My heart weighs me down."

They sat together in the paddock, watching and wondering.

Then without a word, Sarah pulled a ribbon from her hair.

The boy watched as Sarah took his heart and tied it to her own.

"What do you think?" she asked.

He answered with a smile.

And with hearts bound, Sarah and the boy started towards the town. 

I do have a heavy heart. I was taught by my parents to love hard, care, forgive always, fight for people, help others and do everything in my power to make those I love happy. This I will never change but it does take its toll and my heart is very heavy. It's filled with deep compassion and empathy for the sick, the elderly, the sad, the weak. I ache for those around me who are not in the same place I am. Happy.

 6 years ago a special man floated past and changed my life forever. He was crazy, irrational, he pushed boundaries and he lived hard with no regrets and no limits. Life was a game and he was in it to play every last second and every last inch. He lived life in the sky with a big beautiful heart.

I couldn't of written a more perfect story about our love and relationship if I tried. Somehow we found each other. Years and partners came and went and in a random moment we became 'us'. We are chalk and cheese, on paper we don't fit, we challenge each other every day and we battle, but we are us. We tied our hearts together and I have helped him be grounded more and he has taught me to spread my wings and fly. 

Over the years our 'heart roles' have changed. Sometimes he's had the heavy heart and I've given my all to take some of his weight away. Other times I need his guidance and his spirit to lift me up when my heart is too heavy to carry on.

Now we face a new challenge. A huge challenge. Our lives will be taken over and for the first time Rob and I will have to take a deep breath, close our eyes and jump. We can't plan, we can't predict and we have absolutely no control. Over this journey our roles will change. We will be heavy, we will be light and we will have to rely on each other to get us through.

I will keep this book in our lounge room. It will always be there. When I lose faith and when I lose sight. When we struggle with balance I will read this and know that all we have to do is tie our hearts together, look forward and never lose hope.

Peace, Love and Hope.

x S.K.K x