Well it is Monday night and I have 4 days left of work. 4 years are about to come to an end. Right now I do not know how I feel. I feel nothing. I go through the motions of feeling sad, guilty, nervous, worried, excited, happy, proud and proud yet when I sit down and think about it I just feel nothing. After writing my last post I honestly feel relieved. I felt all the pain and sadness that night and after writing it all out I knew it was time to close the chapter. It's the right time. I've put my heart and soul into this job and now it's time to take care of me and my family.
I feel confident and comfortable with leaving but it is going to be a massive shock to my system. I will not see the kids every day and I won't get phone calls every weekend. It will be hard to separate and take charge of my own life...but it is time. This week is going to be a week of lasts and a week of goodbyes. As I take on each day I realize that this is it. This is the last time I will do after school tennis. The last time I do homework. The last time I prepare school lunches. The last time I will iron school uniforms. The last time I do kindly pick up. The last time I pick up dry cleaning. The last time I prepare the bath. The last time I kiss their gorgeous little faces goodnight.