January

Goodbye January 2012 ~ Thanks for the Memories

 x S.K.K x

I Gave Up

I gave up today! For the first time I pushed and pushed myself and could not go any more! I stepped out of my comfort zone and went harder and faster and at a different time and it hit me in the butt. I'm working late tonight so I thought I would go for my run before work. I was a bit nervous as I've never run before work before so I was worried I would get too tired at work but as you know I am trying the 'no excuses' thing so I just put my shoes on and went. It was sunny (for the first time in a while) and it was hot! I was looking forward to trying something new! Ohhhhh boy! It was tough! As soon as I started I got a stitch. I haven't had a stitch before in my whole training. I got to 30 minutes and I was hot and my feet were burning and could not push myself! I tried and tried and I went a further 4 minutes but I had to stop! For the first time I stopped. I can't even describe to you the pain I felt in my stomach! The cramping was unbelievable! My head was a blur and I could not think straight! I knew I just had to just drag myself around the corner and I would be home! I finally got to my front door and I didn't know whether I needed to go to the toilet, vomit or pass out! I just went straight to the pool and slid in! The pain was still there and was about 10 times worse than period pain! I just sat there not knowing what was going on! I still don't know what happened! I just started swimming, slowly. I was stretching out and after about 5 minutes I finally felt to feel ok! Yuk! What a terrible experience! First time I've felt that I never want to run again! I know it was just a one off and i should not give up, so I am hoping tomorrow is a bit better! I'm going to stick to running at night and see if it was the sun!

I'm at work tonight so I am having a break and watching a movie! But tomorrow night I am going to put those shoes back on and try again!

That's the thing about running...about life...you just have to keep on trying!

x S.K.K x

The Rain

Rain rain go away, come again another day! 

It has been non stop rain for almost 2 weeks now! How are you all dealing with this rain my local readers? Thankfully it has not been very cold but the humidity has been off the charts! Every thing feels damp around our house! The floors feel damp, the couches feel damp! Its an ikky feeling! Last year when we had this weather mould started to show its disgusting, unhealthy face around our home and eucalyptus oil became my best friend. I'm not looking forward to that stage! For now I'm going to enjoy the rain as it peacefully sweeps through the trees at night. I'm going to enjoy the cool breeze the rain creates when the humidity just gets a little to much to handle. I'm going to enjoy the beautiful singing of my gorgeous Ruby, as the raindrops falling on the tin roof create a song for her to sing to. I'm going to enjoy watching Bindi as she runs around the backyard jumping and catching the raindrops like they are dog treats falling from the sky. I am goign to enjoy cuddling with my husband on the couch on the weekends because it is too wet for him to go outside and work. I am and I mean I AM going to enjoy running in the rain. A little (or a lot) of rain isn't going to stop me!


The shoes...

I realised this week that my jelly shoes were the best investment EVER! They are gorgeous and casual and are perfect for stomping through the puddles and rain at work! No matter how wet or muddy they get a quick wash and towel dry and they are as good as new! I HIGHLY recommend them! I have 3 pairs and wear them every day. Rain or sunshine! The clear jellies on the left are Holster and the red are Country Road

 

This week I also braved the rain and RAN. Well well well wasn't that a hilarious experience. Fun, hard but hilarious. It was just sprinkling so I thought yes here is my chance. I put on my rain jacket (just in case) and went for it. Well as I got further and further the rain got harder and harder. Mid run it was absolutely pouring and FYI my jacket was NOT water proof but water "resistant". I should of warn none! There wasn't any point in stopping as I was wet anyway so I completed my run! 30 minutes and I was soaked head to toe. It was hilarious. Its a funny experience being hot and sweaty from running yet having the cold rain pelting down on your face. My bad if I get sick this week! Come on immune system! I had fun and I completed the run so now I know there are definitely NO excuses! The rain can not stop me! It felt good and exhilarating and motivated me even more to keep it up! 

x S.K.K x

My New Thing

Soooooo I am kinda trying this new thing. It is kind of exciting and fun and bloody hard work. I've always wanted to. I used to when I was younger (and was quite good at it) but I got old and injured and busy and lazy and an excuse master! But now Im getting back into it and quietly loving it!

Running

I would never have thought that I would like it so much! Ive always been envious of the girls and guys running on the paths. I would drive past them chomping on my chocolate bar, quietly cursing and laughing at them with extremely green eyes! "I could never do that" were my famous words. I got puffed walking up a flight of stairs. I am not overweight, and never have been, but I am terribly terribly unfit. How on earth can you run for that long with out dying. I'm not an 'exerciser' I've tried the gym thing and it was awesome for a bit but I'm not a gym girl. I don't think 'yes I cant wait to finish work so I can go to the gym and exercise'. PUH-LEASE! I would much rather go home and eat a whole packet of m&ms while watching t.v. Why aren't I overweight?? I have no idea because I sure did eat, act and think like one. My ex boyfriend once told me that I have the mind of an obese person. Um excuse me? Are you friggen kidding me? How does someone say that to someone who they "love" O.k so now I know he was right...and worried. I was in that frame of mind. I was lazy. Why exercise when I can feed myself beautiful food. I love food. I could smash a whole packet of pods on the way home from work, every day, and not feel guilty AT ALL! It was my life, I wanted to enjoy it and that's what I enjoyed! Yes I yo-yo'd in the weight department but I never got bad enough that it would worry me. I liked food better.

Well now I'm not allowed to eat the food. I'm physically forced to not eat everything I enjoyed! Sad that it was food, but it was. I am now coeliac and completely lactose intolerant. All the foods I loved and adored and made me happy are now a distant memory. Its hard changing your diet after 25 years. You are in a habit and man that habit it hard to break! There were times in the early stages were I had to lock myself in the room because I knew there was a packet of chips in the cupboard and I didn't have the self-control to not eat them. Those who know me know I love my chips. mmm Thia sweet chilli. Actually how funny I just got a sick feeling in my stomach the minute I thought about them. Where as 6 months ago the minute I thought about them I would be straight down to the shops and would be buying a packet. Wow a breakthrough. I have a whole lot of feelings and thoughts about this whole "coeliac gig' but that's for another time. It's intense and I'm not ready. I'm not positive about it...yet. I will be...but not right now. Right now I'm positive about running. Maybe it's my outlet to forget about the diet changes. Maybe I just got bored and wanted something physical to do...for me. Maybe I've turned the corner and left the laziness behind and boarded the 'energetic' boat. What ever the reason...I'm loving it.

Ive found that the 'couch to 5K' program is really getting me going. There is no way that I would go out and run for no reason. I needed a goal. I needed a push. I couldn't afford a personal trainer so my trusty Iphone had to do! But honestly...its awesome! It trains you to run 5 kilometers using interval training. Its super easy! Even for a very unfit person like me! O.k it's not THAT easy. I do secretly swear under my breath at the man when he says "start running" but then I like him again when he says "walk".

I push myself hard and I don't cheat. I'm not going to lie, my mind does fight with itself. But I've always given up so this time I'm trying this new thing of...NOT! I surprise myself every day! I surprise myself with the excitement and dedication I have. I train the minute I get home! If I'm feeling lazy or not wanting to go, I quickly jump on twitter and I am instantly motivated by an awesome girl on there who has just hit her 5K mark! Go Jodes!!! I've found I like to do this on my own! I put my headphones on and feel the music and just go for it. No thinking. No seriousness. I just do it! Rob has come with me a few times, when I've really really not wanted to go. He pushed me and supported me and has ridden beside me! He learnt very quickly not to talk to me though haha Talking tires me out and I can not make the distance! When he first came with me he just shook his head the whole time and said "do you dance like that when I'm not with you?" Yes darling I dance and sing and have fun with it. And yes I fist pump it down my street each and every time! I've finally felt and experienced that awesome feeling after 'exercising' I love it. It's fun. I'm motivated and dedicated and that excites me. one of my 'goals' for 2012 was to run 5K. Well baby I think I actually might achieve it. I can smell it. It's close. I just have to keep pushing and having fun!

 

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x S.K.K x