I Gave Up

I gave up today! For the first time I pushed and pushed myself and could not go any more! I stepped out of my comfort zone and went harder and faster and at a different time and it hit me in the butt. I'm working late tonight so I thought I would go for my run before work. I was a bit nervous as I've never run before work before so I was worried I would get too tired at work but as you know I am trying the 'no excuses' thing so I just put my shoes on and went. It was sunny (for the first time in a while) and it was hot! I was looking forward to trying something new! Ohhhhh boy! It was tough! As soon as I started I got a stitch. I haven't had a stitch before in my whole training. I got to 30 minutes and I was hot and my feet were burning and could not push myself! I tried and tried and I went a further 4 minutes but I had to stop! For the first time I stopped. I can't even describe to you the pain I felt in my stomach! The cramping was unbelievable! My head was a blur and I could not think straight! I knew I just had to just drag myself around the corner and I would be home! I finally got to my front door and I didn't know whether I needed to go to the toilet, vomit or pass out! I just went straight to the pool and slid in! The pain was still there and was about 10 times worse than period pain! I just sat there not knowing what was going on! I still don't know what happened! I just started swimming, slowly. I was stretching out and after about 5 minutes I finally felt to feel ok! Yuk! What a terrible experience! First time I've felt that I never want to run again! I know it was just a one off and i should not give up, so I am hoping tomorrow is a bit better! I'm going to stick to running at night and see if it was the sun!

I'm at work tonight so I am having a break and watching a movie! But tomorrow night I am going to put those shoes back on and try again!

That's the thing about running...about life...you just have to keep on trying!

x S.K.K x